Distractions required

Friday is my grandpa's exploratory surgery to see how bad the cancer is. I will be at the hospital most of my day. I am not looking forward to that. The only thing I am looking forward to is seeing my family that will all be there. This may be the last time I see them all together for quite some time. I am not nor have I ever been a real religious person but I find myself praying this will not be as bad as we all fear it is. My grandpa is high up there in age but has always taken wonderful care of himself. He goes to the gym everyday and eats right. I know the time will come when I lose him, but I just don't want to lose him to pain. I can honestly say I am so worried about this I have trouble sleeping and eating. I have lost 7 lbs since Friday alone. I just hope Friday some stress will be relieved.

Then on Sunday we leave to go explore where our new home will be. Three days away will be like a vacation lol so ready to be out of here. We are picking up flyer's for our new home and starting the application process. Thank god for this going on right now its a nice distraction. I have been looking up places to live and checking for Madison a preschool. Tons of research because I want to move where I can be proud to say I raised my family. May 1st seems so far away but I know it will be here before I know it. The last week of April my bff is throwing us a going away party which is so sweet of her. I know I am going to cry because some people I am going to miss alot. This is what is best for our family. Stockton has done nothing but be full of drama, anger, and stress. Life always has stress in it but you should do whatever it takes to have as little as possible. The less stress in your life the longer you live :)